And then I thought about all my friends I know since ages and have to admit that they don't have the same faces or bodies anymore as when I met them for the first time. Some of them didn't put on weight and still had the same silhouette, others doubled. They look "old" now, or more polite, you can see that they are not 30 anymore, me included of course.
And this a real problem for me. Usually I completely forget that I am "old" but it is written in my passport, and when somebody proposes me an excursion organized for "seniors" I first think they are crazy ! Me a senior ! Not because of vanity but I have the problem of sitting in an old shell and being still the same as when I were in my thirties. (with some experiences more of course).
There are a lot of things I would like to do, but don't because it would really look ridiculous and nothing is worse than an old cow playing "young". I can't hopping around on dancing floors as I used to do, or dancing a Rock 'n Roll and being thrown over a man's shoulder, or flirting around with young men. I don't wear a bikini any more because I think with an "old" face on even a good conserved body it's better to leave this for women who still have the adequate face. Faceliftings are not really a solution sometimes women look as if they had a stretched mask instead of a face and then I think you look much more attractive when you stand to your age.
Sometimes when I look in a mirror I am surprised that I don't see the face I used to see with 30 and have to remember that this was 30 years ago.
Some women, are always talking about the past that makes them going on, they don't look into the future and prefer to organize their funerals, because then the children wouldn't have to pay too much, they say, proud of how caring they are ! They talk all the time about "at my time" which gets very much on my nerves. What means "their time" ? They are still alive and when was this time ? When I ask them they look surprised, they don't even know.
Some women start complaining about wrinkles, loosing hair and thick veines etc the whole day long as if there were nothing more important in life. Besides going out in restaurants, movies shopping, hairdresser and beauty saloon, they do nothing ! Oh yes, they do something, they drink and a lot mostly wine. It's amazing how many women become alcoholics after they are retired or the children have left the house.
Fortunately most of my friends which I know since ages are dealing very well with getting older. They even don't realize. They have a lot of occupations such as photography, painting, or helping out in hospitals, they get never bored and most important they are full of humor, and enjoy life. They are happy to be able to do things they love but had never the time to do.
They can travel as they like they don't have to pay attention to school holidays, they can go to bed whenever they want they don't have to work or get up for the children, they can get up early or late, nobody cares (except the husband if they have one), in short they are free. . So a few wrinkles what does that matter ?
I always have a very good relationship with girls or boys in their 30 or younger probably because of my problem, feeling 30 and sitting in my old shell but with a very important advantage I can look back on 30 years of life and I have become wiser too.
And there is one woman in my life who is my example : my grandma. She was wonderful at any age and even took care of the bookkeeping of much younger women when she was already far in her 80. She was funny, active and witful until she felt off her armchair at 95 watching her favorite TV soap and died.